One way ticket

haven´t slept since then, and i don´t think i´m ever gonna, it´s like i don´t feel ok wasting time in something that just brings pain, bad memories, and the need to start all over again, from the beggining, in that point where the mirror broke and it all shattered. still don´t know how long i´ll be able to hold myself in this, it´s all blurry when i try to look, i allmost can't hear, my limps are numb, and the worst is, i don´t seem to care. As long as i stay away from that, from everything i´ll need to re remember if i ever fall asleep, if i have to wake up to a new morning...
i have decided i have had my last awakening, i will eventually fall asleep, i know, but i am so needy of not waking up, that i just know i won´t. Can you help me? the act of my own hand would ban me from where i´m going. yours would do as good, and, you don´t beleive in the same bullshit i beleive in. it´s simple, you know the drill, the consecuences, as long as you keep it in secret nothing will happen to you, plus, i will allways be thankfull, and you don´t have a god to respond to.
would yo do me that favor?

deeply yours

tom

ps: already have the stuff, just in case you were wondering.